Y’all know I’m bi. I’ve made it pretty darn clear from the first things I posted. I’m not so sure now, though.
Some days I’m 100% sure I’m bi/lesbian, but recently I’m going through a straight-phase and I’m wondering if I’m actually straight all along.
Maybe I’m lying to myself, to get attention (although how can I get attention in my awkward semi-closeted state?). Or maybe it’s to feel different and special from everyone else. Maybe it’s to feel I belong in a community.
My friends all talk about boys and I can’t stop thinking about them any more (boys, not my friends). My boy-crushes have got so much stronger than all my girl-crushes. I actually want to be attracted to girls, because they’re so pretty and nice and everything, but I almost can’t any more.
LGBT+ young people hate it when The Straights say “you’re too young to know”, but maybe I am. I’m only just turned 12 years old, and I’m having a full-scale freakout over my sexuality. I’m not anywhere near the legal age of consent, I’m far too young to be thinking about boys/girls/whoever I end up dating, this shouldn’t matter to me at this age! I should be obsessing over Harry Potter and memes and homework and stuff (although I already do that far too much), not worrying about grown-up stuff. Identity crises are not for pre-teens! Sometimes I make myself so flarfing* mad.
I know that bisexuals get really annoyed when The Straights say “it’s just a phase” or “you’re just confused” or “you’ll eventually pick one gender”, but what if it’s true? What if I am just confused, or in a phase? What if I’m straight? This stupid heteronormative world has got me stumped.
Please help me! I would really appreciate any advice or support from anyone (even if you don’t support it) :)
*all credit goes to Luna for making up that awesomely spectacular word :P