I have recently been full of SO MUCH ANXIETY. So much that I am having eating difficulties. I think I’m okay, I eat, worry I’ll throw up, and all I’d have eaten was a piece of bacon. I don’t understand my PROBLEM.
When I get anxiety, my stomach feels like it’s scrunching up and it hurts. I also get headaches. But it’s been a lot of stomach aches (also “abdominal migraines” as the doctor puts it). Yesterday, though, when my mom told me we WEREN’T going to the doctor anymore to check out my stomach, a majority of my stomach ache disappeared.
RIDICULOUS.
So anyways, yeah. I think I really just need a therapist. I feel better when I’m distracted. So… yup.
But starting two days ago, I’ve started doing weird things to help me cope with my anxiety. I touched every single thing in my room, running my fingertips along it. When I left my room feeling more comfortable, I still had tingly fingers, so I ran it along the wall. I told my mom and she says it might be ocd?
Then yesterday I had started talking out loud to myself and just kept rambling because the sound of my voice was comforting and I liked the vibrations in my throat? I just talked, barely taking a breath in between. After I realized, I couldn’t just STOP, so I hummed. Again, it helped me cope?
Is this a sign of something? Do you guys have any advice? Am I going insane??? Please help!
