Dude (or dudette)........ all right here we go. Honestly, why? Why do you hate yourself? You have good things happening to you every single day. I'm not gonna waste my time typing I'll just copy and past the text from my post " I CARE":
Your not alone in this world. I dont know exactly how you feel no one does, but I still care. I'm here for you and so many others are too. I care. Lots of people care. It is hard to imagine a way out of this but we can start chipping away together because I've got your back. Your trying your best right? That's more than good enough.... that's great. It's not okay that you have to endure this pain while people tell you your fine they dont try to understand but some people do. People are here to help you in any way. I'm sorry your in so much pain while people are faking it, but some people, good people can tell. I'm not gonna leave or abandon you lots of people stay. When this is all over we both will still be here. I cant completely understand your pain but I still empathize. You are an amazing human being who matters and is loved and exists. You are important to earth and me. If you ever need a friend..... I'm here because..... I care.
I really mean this.