WARNING AND APOLOGIZE: So, I know some of you think that when people are saying things about their parents were saying that are lives are the worst and everyone is living the dream life. I'm not saying that AT ALL I love my parents but sometimes it's hard. I understand that lots of people's life are worse than mine. Pls don't take this the wrong way. This is the only place where I can tell people how I'm feeling and not get judged and have people understand.
So rn everyone at my Youth Group is making a group chat and I can't be on it bc my parents won't let me have a phone, iPod anything! And most of the other people can be on the group chat (basically everyone can or will be able to soon or have siblings that can be on). Also, I feel like since my Crush got back from camp and got a phone, he's different he's distant. It's weird and since next week were going to be Carpooling, I was wondering how to talk to him and ya know go deeper?
Also do you know what it's like to always be that kid that doesn't know anything "Popular" I'm always 10 months behind on the shows and movies. Cuse my dad wants to watch it with us but never has time. I'm always the odd kid who watches baby shows. Whose parents are over restrictive!? Do you know what it's like to work so hard to get rid of those labels? I mean am 12 yrs old but I've basically rarely picked up a video game?
Also, just a lot is going on! And I feel like everything is chancing in my life, everyone else is moving on! Making new friend going to Co-op getting a life! And I'm held back, it's the same old boring me from 2 yrs ago! I want to chance but I don't know how! I don't know what I want to be! Who I want to be! Idk what to do with my life! Basically, nothing has changed about me since I was 10! I'm still known as the "Bookworm" even though I don't read much anymore. I'm still cute little me! No one sees me as a person just as a thing! I want people to see the real me how do I do that?
I'm sorry there's just a lot going on. I'm literally crying writing this post. No one understands what it's like. I've had to hide my feelings bc I'm just judged when I share them. It's so nice coming here and just being me.
Thanks, and sorry.
(Btw don't just say go to therapy)