Hi, I’m not sure what to say because I’m a girl and I’ve always felt like girl. I’ve never questioned my gender sense I feel like the one I have is the one I am.
But based on just reading part of your question, I can tell that this is hard. I am 10 right now and go through puberty as well, so maybe this is puberty. But as I said, I don’t know how to really respond.
My advice is to just possibly talk to a trusted adult or friend. If you feel comfortable that is. Also, if you’re Christian pray. If you consult in God he can help you. And know that I am praying for you.
P.S. You could also talk to an older sibling if you have one or feel comfortable about it. + Don’t be afraid. But if you think someone is going to make fun of you ( Based on their usual behavior, not nerves)
Then don’t consult in them.
Also, consider asking a parent or guardian to get you counseling. It’s not a bad thing, it just helps you to let out what you are feeling, and they can help you by giving you ideas to help!