I'm really upset about my dad this week.
I don't know why but him being gone just seems so real today and last week I really wish that I did Not feel this was because it is making me cry a lot. I'm also sad for other reasons that I don't want to say because ik people like catlover will judge me and say mean things to me. Also I think Anna/gamkid will also get mad if I say what I am feeling so I am just gonna vent about nothing basically because I just feel so awful and sad right now and I feel so sad I want to throw up. I also think I want ot visit his gravestone back in Florida where we all used to live but ik the plane tickets are expensive and it just seems worthless but maybe we could just drive back down to Florida so I could visit my dad's gravestone. We usually visit once every two or three months because it is like three hours by plane and it just makes me really sad to think about him in the dirt. Idk I feel like I am venting for no reason and ik I always seem so happy and supportive and cheerful and all but for the past three weeks I have really really just been missing my dad. Sometimes a girl just needs her dad you know? And with my broken leg and what Trevor's friends did to me and with my eating issues and hating puberty and wishing I was normal is getting really bad. I just don't feel human I can't even describe how I feel because I don't even know what I feel and I just dont know WHAT TO DO. I JUST CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE. I am literally crying while I type this I can't do it.
Nobody in my family understands that sometimes a 12 year old girl just NEEDS HER DAD.
and the worst part is, I need my dad so bad and............,,
I can't have him.
-Chelsea
