yesterday i had a dream about my "crush" (i don't like saying that) where we were a bit younger, so like maybe back in 5th grade, and we were at a big gathering (why we knew the bratayley family and were at their house, idk...I DONT EVEN WATCH BRATAYLEY. but in my dream i thought it was perfectly normal to know them for some reason?!!¿!!!¡?) and he was playing games on an iPad near the door with some of his friends i think, and i was in and out of that room because i think it was the kitchen. so there was a table of adults who kept talking about him and how "cute" he was whenever i would walk by or be around them. it was really cringey and really bad.
next dream.....:
this was last night and a little more recent so it seemed to take place this year. so my friend used to like the same guy as me, and it kinda felt like we were competing for his affection. a very awful feeling. because when she would have a sort of moment with him, then i would. and i think that i was the last one before him and his little sister left, and since he's a boy and also my crush, i can hug his little sister and everyone else but not him for some reason. so instead we shook hands. WHAT THE FREAK IS THAT. *also my friend doesn't like him anymore, but they both came over recently and she kinda seemed to still like him, though she's my best friend and would tell me if she did*
*also i've had many dreams about him...over 10 now; i've lost count. and for my very short-lived other crush that didn't last 2 years, only like half a year, i only had 2 dreams about. but i've liked my current one for like 2 years now so i've had way more dreams about him. a lot of them just him being there that day or whatever. or him having a little girlfriend in freaking kindergarten and me being jelly about it or something ridiculous like that xD. i need help *