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[ this is a vent about my identity, so I would need help ]

So, as you guys know. Im Venezuelan and Spanish. To add to that, im also an immigrant.

Recently, Ive been struggling to feel proud of my heritage. I decided to tell my mom about how I feel regarding my heritage and she was a bit mad at me

For those who dont know, Venezuela is under a really terrible ruler, and living in Venezuela is terrible (I have lived in Venezuela until I was 8, but I lived in one of the better areas, which is now destroyed due to an explosion that happened 2 years ago) Venezuela is considered one of the most dangerous countries as well.

So Venezuela gets all the bad rep. Not just that, but Venezuelan-Americans too. My dad (who's Spanish) old me that Venezuela was a good country in the past but nobody cares about that part of Venezuela.

I am proud of my Spanish side, because AT LEAST Spain is more known than Venezuela. I go to a (mostly) Hispanic school where we are mandatory to learn Spanish regardless of our race, and I actually feel kind of sad knowing that I cant feel proud of my heritage

Because I wasnt born here in America

Because I had to live in a country where you had to deal with a horrible leader and suffer from food shortages every once in a while

becuase I am not "Lucky"

And beford you ask, No. I do not want to be Scandinavian. I love Scandinavian culture and histiory, but I still know that I am Venezuelan and I am not able to change that.  And also, I feel very uncomfortable that I can "pass" as a Scandinavian due to how I look (im Tall, I have light skin and I have blueish eyes), and I feel ashamed that when they ask about my culture, I say I am Venezuelan and people will consider im a fraud (it has happened. Multiple times) I always get told.

"You look Scandinavian/Scandinavian-American"

"You were probably from [insert Scandinavian country]"

"Have you consider getting DNA tested?"

"Do you miss [Insert Scandinavian Country]"

Anyways. I dont do anything related to Venezuela other than I speak Spanish at home (on the internet and at school I speak English) and I eat Venezuelan foods for breakfast almost every day.

I need help trying to find reasons to be proud of being Venezuelan. The only good thing about Venezuela I could find was a waterfall, which is cool but the negatives outlive the positives.

I also would like to thank the Scandinavians/Scandinavian-Americans (well everybody) on KT  for accepting here me for my culture and my interests, because You guys are so awesome

[KT plz dont take this down. I need help with trying to love who I am]

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Sometimes I don't like my heritage either. I love being a Black girl (#BLM) but sometimes it feels so boring to be just straight up African-American. It was always my dream to be Hispanic, or Latina or Swedish or Japanese or ANYTHING else. It just seems too... Plain.
I'm not much different from other girls, I speak, 6 languages and I only know a little bit of each. There are many black girls like me, but other races are far much more rare or valued. You can walk down the street and see an African American, but it's rare to find a Swede or Hawaiian person.

We went to Florida and shopped at the Walmart, and everywhere you turned there was a Caucasian or Latino and Latina person. I bet they think it's normal, but It's not for me. I wish I was them, and I could speak fluent Spanish. Knowing Manzana is an apple in Spanish Ain't that special.
Plus, every time somebody spoke Spanish, I would understand them and answer perfectly.
So, I'm with you; I wish I could change my ethnicity... But I know that my heritage tribe is the Blackfoot Tribe! I'm also a tiny part Indian and Caucasian! it's not THAT special though, since I can't speak Indian.

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Youre lucky for not being Venezuelan

Answer 1

Hey Carly! From a fellow Hispanic who is Colombian, I often find myself too not feeling proud of my heritage. Our ruler is/was a literal gangster so uh. We’re not in good hands. If you ever want to talk about it you can hit me up :F

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I dont know how to put it into words

Answer 2

Guys

I still hate my heritage

I keep finding ways to hate myself yay

I think God hates me (he already made me an Autistic Nordic Historian which is already bad)

Answer 3

Well guys

I feel worse about my heritage.

I tried finding good news about Venezuela, but I cant.

I dont want to be Venezuelan. I just wish I was anything buy Venezuelan

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Why do you hate your heritage so much?

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negative reputation

look uo Venezuela on the news

Answer 4

I thought Venezuela was highly known?

People talk about it all the time on my YouTube, and also:

What school FORCES you to learn a language? At school, I'm forced to learn art- Which makes no sense. I'm amazing at drawing! And what if I don't WANT to grow up and be an artist or architect? There's many other jobs that don't involve art or drawing that I want to have, like being a ballerina.

I personally think that it's stupid to force children to learn stuff that is usually optional. I had no choice,and neither did you. 
First you serve us THIS

 That food look as dry as H-E-Double Hockey stick.  AND DON'T FORGET THE NUTRITIONAL TRU-MOO!

And then force us to learn a language. WHY-

Like, who told you I WANTED to learn Swedish or Chinese? Leave me alone Xd

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it is very known, however the politics are awful

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Hey, that school lunch looks like what they serve us!

(Except it’s different stuff)

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Nah a kid got Salmonella at school due to the lunch therr (I go to a Private Hispanic school)

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Wait, private schools also have lunches? I thought it was just public schools.

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yes

Answer 5

I'm assuming you PMed KS to change your username?

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Yes

Answer 6

Fun fact: there was a venisualian sled team who competed in the Olympics and flipped over in their sled and humiliated their entire country. 

_{I just realized that was actually a Jamaican team.}

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Oh

Answer 7

Btw have you eaten arepas before?

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I LITEARLY ATE ONE FOR BREAKFAST

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:O

THEY TASTE SO GOOD WITH LIKE BLOCKS OF CHEESE

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YES

Answer 8

Boost.

I also want to make a vent drawing on the same topic so yeah

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Also I changed my username

Answer 9

Like what Venezuelan foods?

Answer 10

It will be ok.