Please help me!
So all of y’all probably know about my KNG situation by now. Well, things aren’t getting any better. we haven’t spoken a work in weeks, since she said her goodbyes. Since then, I have become OBSESSIVE over anything that is connected to her in some way. The book that she lent Kairi that she forgot to give back? I read it and re-read it again. The birthday card she gave me? Memorized it. The dark-blue, PaperMate mechanical pencil she gave me? I always use it for everything. Book an how to draw cats she made? keep it on my nightstand. Re-read emails, re-played scenarios of happy moments together, and fantasizing about her actually picking up the phone when I call, even though I’m too chicken to even try calling. Pictures of her drawings, her cat, her new school, old drawings from her DeviantArt account, her WattPad account, her Amino account, yeah, I don’t have access to any of those sites, but I sure wish I did. Even an old school-paper from last year, or something with her handwriting on it. Little things she gave me, small ringers for her just leave my heart aching for more... :( Why am I obsessing over her? It’s a little weird, dont’cha think?