Hey. I know I'm on break but I just need to get this out.

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Some things have been going on lately. Most of them I don't know if they will get approved.

My aunt is doing drugs. She..u, something happened a few days ago and I got taken away from her for good.

We got taken away from her.

I keep having these mental moments were I faint and stuff.

I keep escaping home.

Yesterday I went to my mom's gravestone and nobody went with me I snuck off in the night to go. And there was a note. There was a note. For me. I didn't read it yet. I mean I read it but im not willing to talk about it. Im just going to be crying for days.

I want my life back.

I want to be 7 again. Pretty, kind, sweet, cute, carless, perfect life, little me. I miss those days, the day that my dad collapsed and died holding my hand when I was 8 traumatized me for life. Whenever I think about it before bed I get nightmares. And not normal nightmares. Bad ones. Real bad ones. Like, unhealthy ones.

My friends all say I have an eating disorder. They say I have anorexia nervosa because don't eat much and I'm skinny. But thats not why. I dont eat much becuz im depressed.

If I never broke my leg my mom could still be alive.

I miss her.

I really do.

Can anyone cheer me up. Im currently typing this in a garage. (dont ask)

So.'

~C

Ig I just told yall most of ma life.

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I want to be 7 again. Pretty, kind, sweet, cute, carless, perfect life, little me. 

exuse ME!! all of those things arw what u are now ecept being seven

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Ty girl.

Answer 1

I’m speechless I don’t know what to type. Except that I would, and if the universe allowed it, trade my life for yours so you don’t have to go through that.

I know this doesn’t help but I hope this does 

*Virtual Hug* 

Just know that you are still as, pretty, kind,nice,sweet and cute. as when you were 7.

 Try going to therapy if you can, if not search the web for ideas and things to do that might make you feel better, go for a walk/run in the park if you can, listen to upbeat music and podcasts if that’s more you kind of thing. vent in a journal/diary. 

Do anything that will make you feel better okay?

Let the tears run sometimes it’s just better if you let it all out.

Listen to an audiobook or read a book about natural ways to get rid of depression.

I really really do hope you get better. 

Try looking for the sun on cloudy days.

- your friend Rainbow kitty

Answer 2

Chels I'm so sorry u have to deal with all this 

Chels you need to eat. U can die from not eating u know. 

Chels you are still pretty. And smart, kind, and funny. And I know you can make it through this because u r a brave and awesome person. 

Chels if your Aunt is doing drugs u need to tell a police officer or the principal at your school. Drugs are really serious stuff. It would be the right thing to do to tell a police officer or something. 

How could u not  breaking your leg have anything to do with that? Its NOT your fault Chels. 

Chels you are an Awesome person. You are my favorite virtual friend EVER!!!! You. Are. AWESOME!!!!! ILYSM CHELS (plat)

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can't talk rn.

But tysm qc. Ur amazing.

P.S. Gtg look for my sister soon.

Answer 3

Chels, I know how it hurts.

I do.

Js stay strong and js know we all love you sm!

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Answer 4

I'm so sorry to hear about everything you're going through. It sounds like you've been through a lot and it's completely understandable to feel overwhelmed and sad. It's important to remember that it's okay to feel the way you do and it's okay to seek help and support from others.

You are not alone in this and there are people who care about you and want to help. Surround yourself with positive and supportive people, and consider talking to a therapist or counselor about everything you're going through.

Remember to take care of yourself and prioritize your well-being. It's okay to feel sad and it's okay to grieve for your mom. Take things one step at a time and don't be too hard on yourself. You are strong and brave for sharing your feelings and reaching out for support.

Sending you love and light during this difficult time. You are not alone.

Answer 5

It's not your fault. Do not blame yourself. I'm glad you don't have to be around that kind of stuff anymore. I know it's very traumatizing, I've had to be around it too. You are pretty and you have a lot of people on here (including me) who care about you. See if you can talk to a therapist or someone. You can talk to me about it anytime.

-Hugs

Alex

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Thank you. I don't know what would do without you all here on kidztalk. Its just hard for me. My mom dies four years after my dad. But my dad couldn't help it. He died of a heart attack. Well he died of several heart attacks in one day. My mom died from taking the wrong uh..medicine. I have a therapist that I go to weekly. It helps me mostly.

Hugs back to you.

-Chels

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That's good that you have someone to talk to. I'm sorry about your parents.

-Alex

Answer 6

Oh my gosh. This is absolutely terrible and I feel bad even typing this because I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. And you are still pretty, kind, sweet, cute, and so much more! I am so sorry and I know what you mean. Some of my family says I am anorexic :( I am not. And if anyone can get through this it is you. You are so strong. Keep going  

Answer 7

I would give up everything MC I own if it would make you happy.  I would stop MC for life to make you happy.

*hugs*

Answer 8

BRO STOP

YOU ARE STILL PRETTY, KIND, NICE,SWEET, AND CUTE.

YOU ARE AMAZING.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ISTG (P)

Plus, how would you breaking your leg kill your mom?? You didn't kill her.

SO STOP.

STOP THINKING THAT STUFF. FOCUS ON THE GOOD IN YOUR LIFE. PLEASE.

I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO THINK THESE THINGS.

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No. My life isn't good.

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Cmon! There has to be one thing you love about your life!

What about us? KT?

What about your friends?

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I love.. Kt.

And almyfriend irlditched me cuz they said i have an eating disorder

:(

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Well know that.....

WE LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT :)

Sorry I'm so late to the post :(

I hope your life gets better.

I wish I could give you some Hershey's nuggets, Gummy bears *Not  Joel*, AND RAINBOWS AND HUGS AND PINKIE PIE, AND ACTUAL PIE :( *The good kind*

I'm sooooo sorry.

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Ty friend.

Ty ty..

:)

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Your welcome :)

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IF EVERYONE ON KT COULD GIVE YOU A BEAR HUG THEY ALL WOULD