(Btw, my first crush we'll call Carrot, my second we'll call cute boy.)
I've had the same complications, but that was only for two weeks I had complications to choose between who to crush on. My first crush, before I had the two crushes (which he was still one of them, I just crush on him first.) Was someone I had known for 7 months now. When I first saw him, I didn't care about him; actually, I thought he was okay looking but not my type. I would sometimes make rants about how annoying he was, without actually getting to know him. After a few months had passed, we played a game in which we both had gotten married. People asked me if I had a crush on him, like, a million times. I kept telling them, "No! He's to small for my type," because he is smaller than me. After that, he said, "Got to heck." I didn't respond, but I was going to say, "Oh, okay, I can go to heck and you can go to h*ll." But I was stopped by a friend who was going to tell me something. Then after all that "drama", I had started catching feeling. It was winter break, so I hadn't see him in three weeks. After winter break, seeing him again I couldn't talk to him because of butterflies. Then, this is where crush 2 comes in, "Cute Boy". He was new, and he was tall and what I imagined. He looked EXACTLY like my dream guy. Carrot and cute boy were fighting in my mind, who should I lose my crush on? Soon enough, I chose carrot. My feelings for Cute boy were all for his looks, and that's when I realized two weeks later is that I liked Carrot because of pure personality. When I first met him, I thought he was okay, but getting to know him more I started liking him. Anyways, after one moth of not speaking to me because of butterflies, Carrot had spoke to me in the cuteness way ever possible. I was so excited and happy, I whispered to myself, "Oh my gosh" a million times. Let's just say, he most likely heard. Now, he talks to me a lot, and I still have feeling. But now, I feel embarrassed from whatever I do around him because I feel like he'll judge me.
Anyways, that's my boy experience.
