We’re all friends here on KidzTalk, meaning we (well, at least me) consider you as a friend!
Well, maybe take a break from TikTok and YouTube by deleting those apps. If you feel tempted, distract yourself with something else (like reading, writing, dancing, singing, etc.).
Also, I’m sorry for your loss. To get over your loss, you could focus on the present instead of dwelling in the past.