Important Studios presents...
Important Essays that no one asked for.
Halo subjects, today I'm going to try and offset my not-feeling-so-greatness by typing in some random stuff. Enjoy if you want, this is mainly for my sanity :D
I usually make stories because I've made up a random story in my head, obsessing over it for some time and then going on to the next thing. I've been trying to stick to plans, like making a Minecraft OC and building a story on what I had created when I was younger, playing the game on a creative flat world.
But wait, I had created so many different MCOC's that it was jumbled up; whatever storyline I felt like going with that day was that. I had so many to choose from. The Blackstone Crew you hear now in reference to Herobrine's Blade (or maybe you don't, my stories haven't been popular for a long time) were once called the Comedy Club. They were much more dysfunctional and mean, menaces to society. They didn't ultimately try to turn over a new leaf; the leaf was dark green and it was going to stay that way. It was the darkest of leaves, the most off-putting leaf you'd ever see. If you were to spot this leaf in the pile, the leaf would be so scarily enigmatic that you wouldn't even want it in your yard anymo—
If you didn't read all that, I was ranting about my OCs, and it turned into a conversation about leaves.
You all may know me for my usual upbeat personality, my chaotic but super friendly energy, the HP nerd who takes the chance to talk about the franchise when she sees it, etc. And I am that. Most of the time.
You may think I'm an extrovert based on the way I talk to you guys. I'm not. I'm just the opposite. I've had to withdraw myself from this site a lot because I can't even talk to my closest friends on here. They went extremely semi-active. And I do not know how to deal with it.
Dino comes on for two seconds and I feel so happy when I think I can get to talk to them, coming to find out that I try commenting on their answers or posts and I'm lucky to get a hi back. I may be selfish. I'm vey selfish at times.
And I probably am the most selfish person in the world when it comes to that. Because I need to accept that they have a hard life, constantly having to deal with problems at home and at school. Even at the store.
I also need to accept that Esie wants to follow her dad's wishes and be on here close to no time. I have to accept that Writingnerd may never come back after vanishing with a snap of a finger. I have to accept that I have no motivation to continue Herobrine's Blade, and that I wish I only had Everpane to worry about, but I can't do that to MCN.
I have to accept that the only people who actually care about my stuff are in an amount of 3... And I'm truly grateful for them. But I remember when Esie used to comment on my things, telling me how good I was as description. And Writingnerd made me feel so good about my skills.
And Dino always made me feel good about myself in general when it came to my stories. They all did. And now they're gone, and I feel like the heart of KT is gone...
I feel like the heart that I had for KT is gone...
The KT Doomsday hit me hard. I promised myself I would never leave, but I had to sacrifice the happiness that ran away with my friends who left. I love all of you.
And I'm not leaving... But I just need you guys to know how I feel...
This wasn't supposed to be depressing. I hope you guys enjoyed your day.
I don't want to seem like I want attention... That would just add to my already-present selfishness... I love ya'll :]
nobodyimportant out—
