I'm really sorry. I haven't lost anyone close to me, but i think you should think about him still being with you, and what would he want for you? Would he want you to move on and live a long, happy life, or would he want you to sit, depressing and being afraid to go back to life? Errrr actually, I don't want to act like a professional therapist cause it might affect something in a bad way, and I think you've been told that same thing over and over, but, I think you should move on. Again, I'm so so so so sorry....
Hope you feel better, I'd love to be friends❤️
Xxx,
GirlyGirl