Well. The thing that happened last night. I'm definitely overreacting. But they are not burying my mom......

Question

 She wrote on herself that she wanted to have: Cremation.

I..

I.....

I don't know.

I've been lying to you guys you know.

I'm saying im eating so you don't worry.

The truth:

I haven't even looked at food in over a week.

I'm sorry for lying.

But.

I dunno.

Not much for me to say.

Driving to my cast fitting now.

Things I hate about myself and life:

Things I love:

My besties Joel, Anna, and swiftie2013 and slay. And the rest of kt.

Kidztalk.

Bracelets.

Things I hate about myself:

I'm rude.

I'm bullied.

I'm selfish.

I'm mean to Abby when I should really be comforting her.

I'm super irresponsible.

My mom died last week.

My dad died when I was 8.

I have a broken leg.

Leo's mom is still in the hospital and he keeps trash talk messaging me.

I hate myself. Right now I do at least.

I hate my mom for touring me like this.

I hate my dad for having a heart attack.

I hate myself for yelling at my mom and making her leave basically.

I hate my life.

I hate my period.

I hate being a girl.

I hate growing up.

I hate everything right now.

And these neighbors next door are doing bad things.

Half of my sisters and against me saying my mom's death is my fault.

The other half is not speaking to me.

I hate being flat.

I hate thinking I want to hurt myself.

K hate hating life.

I hate being depressed.

I just hate my life right now.

Please approve.

I'm sorry.

There.

I. Not ok.

Im. Not. Ok.

Not at all.

I never was.

And im not.

Comments

10 things of why your the best:

.has the BEST hair

.is super nice

.ver VERy comforting

.makes really meaniful posts

.has the best sense of style

.she can draw REALLYREALLYREALLY good

.the ABSALUTE BEST

.everyones bestie cause she is super nice

.MY first friend on KT

.And just the bestest

I would write more but I don’t have time!

And please eat something anything

-your bestie:cream

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:)

I can't eat but thx.

Luv u girl

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luv you to pm me as soon as you get this

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Ok

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Are u not eating bc u are sad? Or are u anorexic or something? U don't have to tell me ?

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I'm depressed. Depressed people have a hard time eating. And I already weighed like, 65 pounds before all this. Not becuz I'm anorexic or something. I'm just really tiny for my age. I'm 12 and only weigh 65 pounds. Even before this no matter what I eat. But I do have to be cautious about what I eat becuz I have type one diabetes. And one of my leg's is super skinny. But thats becuz its broken!!

BUT I DO CHEER TEAM WHEN ITS HEALED YAYSYSYSYS.

But to answer your question: No. I do not have an eating disorder.

-Chelsea

Answer 1

We don't know each other the best but I am known for good advice and I think u need some...

1. GIRL PLS PLS EAT SMTH ANYTHING RN!! It is not healthy pls get smth in ur system <33

2. I am sooo sorry for the loss of both ur parents. This must be the most horrible thing to go thru. I feel so horrible. Ur in my prayers. Just know that there are many ppl that care Abt u. And even tho ur parents aren't with u anymore, they will always be within u. Think abt them in everything u do, knowing they must want a strong daughter to carry on with or without them. U got this.

3. U r beautiful, strong, amazing... the list could go on. Everyone is built different and always growing. Here I am, 14 and flat as a pancake. But hey, life goes on and there is more to a girl than their figure. Self harm is not getting u anywhere. Think of the ways that make u feel better Abt urself without changing much/anything. Like the hairstyle u choose or clothes! Depression is a horrible experience that I am not ashamed to say I have dealt with. Think Abt the bright side of every situation and work on making things better, not on how it could be worse.

4. Siblings can both bring u up and tear u down. Just know... IT'S NOT UR FAULT! Ur mom's decision was her own and wasn't made because of u. For the moment, only talk and hang around those that r on ur side in this. They r the ones that can help make ur day better and most likely help u deal with the other half that is tryna make u feel bad.

That's all I have right now. Just know u r capable of great things and there r many people that love u. Feel better and if u need anything else, just know I am here for u.

Comments

Wow.

All I can say is thanks.

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Ur wlcm. I hope u feel better. <33

Answer 2

I LITERALY LOVE YOU PLATONICALLY

YOU ARE AMAZING AND MY BESTIE!

IF YOU HURT URSELF I WILL LEAVE AND CRY AND HATE MYSELF!!

Answer 3

AND PERIODS SUCK

im afab (assigned famale at birth)

and it SUCKS

as for being flat, i cant rly realte - as a 12 year old bean who is not flat for their age, i can tell u being flat is a good thing.

Answer 4

HOLY **** IM SO SSORRY I DIDNT SEE THIS BESTIE
if u dont eat or take car of ur self i will come through the screen and make u

Answer 5

You are the best plz eat something Chels I'm sure it'll make u feel better. You are really kind and nice. I feel really bad for u and wish I could help. You must be so strong bc u don't seem sad at all and if u didn't tell us what was going on, we would have no idea. You are amazing girl. - Ur bestie raphy 

Comments

Thank you bestie. It's kind of hard to seem so sad over a screen but yeah. I try to keep up with being happy though but its hard sometimes. I wish my mom didn't die. I wish my dad didn't die. I wish a ton of things. But I can't get everything I want all the time. I'm really glad your my friend. I love all of my besties on kidztalk and even just everyone.

Thanks,

Chelsea

Answer 6

Okay, first of all, you’re gonna need to eat. Even if it’s something light, anything (healthy) is better than nothing.

And secondly, you’ve been a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY (repeat “really” infinite times) good friend here.

Uh, I don’t usually type a lot on sad posts like this because it’s so sad I just… can’t put it into words. Dude, the sadness I feel for you is more than I can explain in words. It’s… near infinite.

And now, I shall feed you the universe once again—

Edit: I’m not flat, in fact, I started developing my you-know-what on your chest when I was 7. So they were fully developed when I was around 8.5 years old. And trust me, I was self-conscious of my early puberty since I was the only person in my grade (3rd) with fully developed you-know-what’s. Trust me, early puberty ain’t fun.

I got my period when I was 9, and I just started 4th grade. I was the only person who got their period, so I was afraid to use the bathrooms at my school.

Sure, being flat isn’t fun, but early puberty is much, MUCH worse.

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Ok.

Thanks elo.

Your a good friend you know!

:)

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Thanks a lot.

And you’re welcome.

Answer 7

Chelsea. I hate my period too. But its what God intended to happen. I am not sure why he added it but he did. And as for you not eating.......... You have to eat Chels. Just eat a little bit. Maybe at least eat lunch or have a few snacks. There is such thing as getting unhealthily skinny. Please Chels please please eat. Everyone on here wants you to live a healthy, happy life. Ignore your older sisters and stop talking to Leo if he keeps trash talking you. Maybe get a bf irl. Your parents would've wanted you to be happy. Try talking with some irl friends about all this and they will make you feel better.

xoxo,

Queen cat

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No.

You guys don't understand.

I tried saying it but I got "hyuded archa mega maxied'.

You dont understand whats happening to me.

IT WONT APPROVE.

ITS THAT BAD.

Thanks queen cat for trying to help but its not that easy.

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Why won't Hyude approve why you're not eating?

Is it inappropriate?

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Its not about the eating..

Its something else.

I tried saying it to Joel but it didn't approve.

Its been going on for a while now.

:(

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What!

If something's wrong, you need to be able to say it or at least make references to it.

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 Do u want to say it? Cuz maybe we can figure out how to say it without u getting hyuded. 

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Yeah.

But its dangerous.

To say I mean.

And yes I want to.

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Hyude…is there any way she could say it in a KT approved way?

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No.

I wizh

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Hyude is just following our moderation rules. We have certain topics that are not appropriate to discuss on KidzTalk.

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Yes.

Which is why I keep it private.

Thanks kt.

Answer 8

You need to eat. Bad things may happen if you don't.

You are strong, kind, lovely, beautiful and ik you will make it through this!!!! 

#Chelsea-Is-Strong 

Also there's no freakin' way your mom died becuz of you. It's not like you killed her. 

Love ya, (p) 

~Eva 

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Luv ya giri

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Same gurlie!

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Yay ur awesome so is ur irl bestie athena kid she's sooo sweet and kind!!

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Tell her I said that k??

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Tysm!! Also, I will :)

Answer 9

Chelsea you’re sweet and kind and I'm pretty sure you’re the first like official friend I’ve made on here you’re one of the nicest people I know and I’ve been on here what like a month and half, so not that long and I know you can make it through this I believe in you! Please don’t give up! 

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Ok.

Thx girl.

Any friend of girlpwr4eva is my friend

:D

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:)

Answer 10

PLEASE EAT 

GIRL I PROMISE EVERYTHING WILL GET BETTER THERE IS NO REASON TO STOP NOW I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU FEEL HORRIBLE I KNOW IT IS SO HARD BUT YOU CAN'T GIVE UP

FOR ME AND FOR KS

Ik it feels bad now but it will get better you are beautiful don't hate yourself 

And here is a special message for Leo

Chelsea doesn't deserve to have to endure your hate messages  you are lucky she didn't block you already. YOU DON'T DESERVE TO TALK TO CHELSEA, LEO JUST STOP.

@#*?*#@!@**#&*&$(##(!)#(*

Reading this made me so angry

WHY DOES THE WORLD BEAT PEOPLE TO THE BREAKING POINT

ME SO MAD

GIRL I WILL FIND YOU AND YOU WILL COME TO A RAGE ROOM WITH ME AND YOU WILL PUNCH THINGS IN A WHEEL CHAIR. (Not actually KT pls don't come for me)

pls message me if you ever want to talk

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.

Mel,

Thx.

Its something else tho.

I'm thinking abt quitting my life.

But idk.

And hehehehe im out of a wheelchair and now im on crutches again. My armpit------sooo red lol.

Tysm for being the greatest 

ily (p)

-chelsea

I hate leo and thx

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GIRL NO

DO NOT DO IT

If you are ever thinking these thoughts please call the Suicide Hotline: 988

I know you are feeling this way but ending it is not the answer I PROMISE that things will get better

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They won't get better though.

I don't even understand why I have my period every basically month if im not going to have kids if im so depressed. It seems like everyone in my life is dying.

Thats gonna be me soon.

I dunno

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I understand how you are feeling but if you ended it all I would be miserable. I haven't died, you don't need to stop now you still have your Aunt and your devil cousins and on here everyone is your friend we would all miss you if you stopped living.

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I dunno.

:/

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I just read this. Chelsea…don’t do it please don’t do it nothing Is ur fault don’t do it please ik u want to but don’t please it will make everything worse think of ur sisters and how they will feel if u do and ur other friends and relatives please chels, please don’t. 

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:.

Idk now.

Its sort of already.

Well anyway.

Cya

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Wdym it’s sort of already? Please chels. Dont

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It sort of done.

I mean..

Its alr.

I'l be ok