Hey there Delila! (Man, I love that song XD)
I'm so sorry that you are having these thoughts :( I have a few bits and peices of advice for you!
Number one is kind of more a question- are you truly thinking about killing yourself, or just wondering? I only ask this because I feel like everyone has thought about killing themselves at some point or another; Whether it be because or embaressment, maybe you would just be curious what would happen, or maybe you are going through a rough patch in life. Or you are just bored an your mind wanders :/ But that's for you to figure out!
Two, if you ARE thinking about harming yourself (like, really going through with it), think about the cost. Now I don't mean financially, but more socially. Your family would be oh so heart- broken. Friends would be, too. These are people who care about you! How do you think they would feel thinking that maybe you didn't feel their love was good enough for you? Or that you didn't love yourself enough?
You could also try and discover the root cause of these thoughts. I someone bullying you? Social anxieties? Are you deppressed? Is there something physical that could be causeing this? If you can figure out what is causing this, you can try to help solve it!
You can ALWAYS message me on here! I would be totally open for a venting session, and maybe some background could help me help you! Also, the Suicide Prevention Hotline is ALWAYS open! The number is 1-(800)-273-8255. I'm sure they would be much better at this than I am! Perhaps consider talking to a parent, therapist, or trusted adult about your behaivors. But if you feel you could do something to/harm yourself, call 9-1-1 and/or go to a hospital imediatley!
And, I know this will most likely get a lot of hate, but this is advice has been given to me several times by someone I love dearly, and it eventually helped: "Choose to be happy." I used to roll my eyes at that peice when I was younger (I guess you could say I was one of those borderline emo kids XD I was soooo insecure!), but as I have gotten older, I have truly taken it into account. Count your blessings! Look on the brightside! Depending on how old you are, this could eventually wear out. But, hey, what do I know!?
Anyways, Delila, I hope you know that there are people who are there for you. Again, you can always talk to me! I really hope everything works out for you, girl! It always seems to :) Best of luck!
