Hey, it is me again

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Yeah, it is me, cuber dude. I have been having some extreme level mental pain lately.

I have come pretty close to, ya know, ending it. The permanent way.

I can't actually tell anybody in my IRL life. My sisters would just say I am overreacting, my parents would just say I am doing it for attention, one of my friends is also depressed so he can't rlly help, and my other friend mainly uses it as a joke because she claims she is too but I don't think she is cause she never acts lile it and id always happy. Always.

I can't even do anything without getting in trouble, and i mean anything. Literally a couple days ago I got in trouble because I was trying to have cereal for lunch cause it sounded good, and I got in trouble cause apparently, even though nobody told me, we weren't allowed to have cereal for lunch. Stupid rule anyway.

I have also had a lot of personal problems going on, so I am just under a lot of stress and my life sucks.

My current favorite song is on cheerlesscheerleader probably knows, "Mask" by dream.

"I wear a mask with a smile for hours at a time"

"And when they ask me how im doing I say im just fine"

I will be here for a couple days, cause this is the only place that i can talk about it.

-cuberdude

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Hey my guy! Sorry you are feeling this way :(

Just thought I had to put that out rq, and I'll answer later, but I've gotta get to school!!

Answer 1

Hi, Cuberdude. Haven't talked to you in a while. I still miss when we talked almost every day. What does 'ending it' mean? Even though I don't know what it means, it doesn't sound nice. Was prom fun?  I feel you about getting in trouble and whatnot. I got in trouble for drinking room temperature water in the cold, instead of warm water. My favorite song right now is 'Lily' by Alan Walker, Emelie Hollow, and K-391. Because I can relate to it. Also, 'Mask' is a great song, but it is a bit too depressing, I used to listen to it a lot a few months ago, but now I know that listening to music that has depressing stuff just makes you more depressed. If you like Dream's songs, then you should try listening to 'Roadtrip' by Dream & PmBata, or 'Life by the Sea' by Tubbo. They're both really great songs, and they are not that depressing, especially 'life by the Sea'. Maybe if you start listening to less depressing songs, you'll be better? Also, if you really are depressed, just know that you have a lot of friends here, in KT and KN.

I hoped this helped, and I hope you get better! <3

~ With luv, Your friend, Wraya <3

Answer 2

Hey Cuberdude 

Please don't end it I know your going through some rough times but it all ways get better light at the end of the tunnel .

as CC said you would miss out on so much much fun stuff in life .It may look dark but it will get better. When I was 10 i was really thinking about running away I planned it and every thing but then I though if I run away I will never see my friends cousins and all those babys I LOVE at church I would have missed out on so many fun stuff and some sad stuff too 

But now I have no wish to leave because I know that God has a plan for me right here. 
Happy Birthday How old are you turning ?? I think that ceral for lunch sounds like a great Idea 

Are you a christan ?? If you are not maybe you should try reading the bible there are some free online sites if you want to try it out .

Answer 3

Hey Cuberdude! I'm actually really happy to see you on here again- but I wish it was on better circumstances :( Again, I am so so so sorry you are feeling this way!

First off, please, oh pretty please, don't "end it!" It's not a great idea- idk if you are a Christian (and even then, suicide is a touchy subject), but in my beliefs, suicide is an unforgivable sin. Not only that, but Im very positive you would be leaving a ton of great people behind who love and care about you  Also, think about all the great things about life you would miss out on- learning to drive, prom, family gatherings, holidays, birthdays, growing up, and having a family of your own. Idk about you, but I sure wouldn't want to miss a second of it :) 

Cindy below has also got some great advice (I was actually gonna post the number, but I guess they beat me to it :p)!

I'm assuming (well, duh) you're going through a bit of a rough patch right now. Again, I'm sorry. Those spots in life can be nasty little buggers! I've certainly had my fair share of them!! Well, haven't we all  Cuberdude, you are not alone, believe you me!! You can always talk to me about anything, and chances are, I felt and gone through the same thing, as will you. I know you can do it, man!! Just keep rolling with the punches :) Things will get oh so much better, you've just gotta make it through these tougher times, I promise!! I always have. And so will you. 

Also, with all due respect to whoever said "cereal isn't for lunch..." That is one of the dumbest things I have ever heard. I could eat cereal all day XD So yeah, stupid rule XDXD

All in all, just keep in mind that people care for you (so does God!)! I would hate to see something happen to you. Just keep going! :) Again, I am always willing to listen if you ever need to vent. I am wishing you the bestest of luck, Cuberdude! 

P.S. Ofc I know that song ;) 

Always bein' judged by a bunch of strange faces

Scared to go outside, haven't seen the light in ages

But I've been places

So I'm okay-ish, so I'm okay-ish

;)

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Yeah I'm okay *bleep*

But the fact is, I'm failing all my classes

They think that I need glasses

I just wish that i could pass this

That's what the mask is

That's what the point of the mask is.

So you'll just see me tryin you won't see me cryin

And I'll just keep on smiling im good, yeah I'm good.

I've been carin so much for so long

Comparin myself for so long been wearin a smile for so long its real, so long its real.

 

 

Side note, that was all from memory...

 

 

Another side note, thx, and today is in fact my b-day lol.

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All memorized!? Insane :p All I know if YNBF and a few other Wilbur songs XD

And a very super duper ultra mega happy birthday to you!! :D I really hope you have a fantastic birthday, and many more to come :)

How old are ya now???

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15 and thx

Answer 4

Hey Cuberdude,

Talking about something like this to a bunch of people is truly a great thing that a lot of people don't have the courage to do, especially with something so serious like this.

The suicide prevention hotline is 1-800-273-8255. If you have a cell phone, you can also text HELP to 741741, and there are people 24/7 willing to help you if you aren't comfortable talking, although calling is definitely a better option.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE. About a million people die from suicide each year. Don't become a part of the statistic.

You are and always will be enough.

So, so many prayers going out to you. Stay safe.

Cindy7872 AJ❤️

Answer 5

:(

Your a Christian right ? I've never dealt with a situation like this.  All I can say is pray.

Come to me  all who Labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Mathew 11:28.

Have you ever said what you are stressed out aloud ? Because when I keep things bottled up it just ends badly.

I really hope things get better and I will pray.

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By the way I am happy to see you again