It's okay to not know. People don't have to immedietely know what they identify as, and its different for everyone. Some know immedietely, some take months, years, decades, etc.
I personally think you sound Fluid. Here's a definition I copy and pasted from a health website (I cut some of the gross/not appropriate parts out):
Fluid
This term refers to the fact that sexuality can change over time and vary based on circumstances.
Its used to describe people who experience shifts in their sexuality in different situations or over the course of their lifetime. You may hear some kind describe their sexuality as fluid.
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But I think this one would be more specific: Abrosexual. This one was also copy and pasted from a health site with all the not appropriate/gross parts removed:
Abrosexual
Abrosexual is a term that describes a kind of s*xual fluidity. Someone who's Abrosexual find s that their attraction shifts often: They might identify with the term "gay", and later feel attracted to all genders (pan/omni), and then feel no attraction at all.
Typically, Abrosexual people experience change in terms of who they are attracted to, as well as the intensity.
This doesn't mean they are " changing their mind" or simply using a different label to describe their orientation. It just means their experience changes over time.
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I hope this helped! Remember, take your time and don't rush it. Just remember you are beautiful and amazing no matter what you identify as, good luck :)
- Dino
