I have a few questions and some other tips and advice would be helpful too. Im really sure I'm trans but I realized pretty recently. I decided to buy a Pokemon game, when I started I was conflicted on which gender I should choose, I ended up picking boy and felt awesome. I looked into why I felt this way and yeah. that was March last year. I still get really dysphoric and sad but I don't know what to do. I also constantly get dreams about turning into a boy or someone finding out about me being trans. But my parents are transphobic, and I don't really have any other people to talk to since I'm homeschooled... I often overhear my parents talk bad about trans and that the parents teach them to be trans. Im too scared to ask for boys clothes and binders from my parents, though I am getting a haircut soon. How can I get those? I cant buy things online or shop by myself. Do I just have to wait? Also for binding could I use really big bandaids, not like those ace bandages wrapped around my torso but maybe large bandaids used like trans tape?
I might tell my older sister but thats scary too (though I'm sure shes supportive). I think if I do tell my parents or older sister I might just say I "want to be a boy really bad and its been bothering me" because I'm scared they'll (my parents) think the internet or school turned me trans. I don't know if they would: tell me its not real and that being trans is being mentally ill but then never mention it again, or do that but also yell at me call me names and take my electronics away. I just don't know what to do. I do go to a thing with other homeschooled kids on Tuesdays but my dysphoria always gets bad because for people calling my name or seeing the boys in the class and getting jealous of how they look. So idk what to do or even if I can do anything so help would be good. if anyone has advice on how to bind or get boys clothes and things like that that would be amazing. Sorry this was super long...
