[THAT TITLE WASN’T TYPED TO BE OFFENSIVE IT WAS TYPED BECAUSE I’M KIND OF COMPLAINING ABOUT IT BUT NOT INSULTINGLY I SWEAR]
Do you ever feel… in the wrong for being LGBTQ?
I felt guilty yesterday. I don’t know exactly why. But I’ve also realized I’m not as attracted to men as much as two days ago. I basically always like men except when I feel no attraction (I forgot the label somehow rip), or so I thought. That might be society kicking into my brain. But… like… people argue that LGBTQIA+ doesn’t or does exist, or whether it’s wrong, and the people fighting against it… I don’t know, I wonder if I am actually delusional. Also, I keep getting told or just hearing (on the internet of course as literally no one but my mom and few friends in my old state know) my sexuality isn’t valid, like “ABROSEXUAL DOESN’T EXIST, DUMMY!” even by members in the same community as me. Just me?
Uhhh… so I don’t like guys as much. Right. I don’t know whether I fully decided against men or if I still like them, so I’m either bisexual or lesbian. Is it weird that I can’t stop thinking about certain females that I’ve found hot and none of the guys pop up?
Maybe I AM lesbian. I’m confused. I hate being abrosexual. It’s like questioning yourself EVERY FEW DAYS. It’s ALWAYS SOMETHING DIFFERENT. AAAAAAAUGH. Somewhat on topic- I want to have a relationship someday, BUT THE AMOUNT OF CHANGING MEANS THAT IF I DEVOTE MYSELF TO ONE SOMETIME IN THE FUTURE I MAY NOT BE ATTRACTED TO THEM SOME DAYS.
I need a genderfluid partner where their gender and my sexuality matches up everyday or something lol
Also, I kinda realized that I don’t quite know if I’m comfortable with she/her pronouns. I mean… I think I’m a girl. I guess some days I can feel more masculine than others, but girls can feel masculine. But I am definitely not a guy, so he/him pronouns are out of the question. I don’t feel nonbinary or agender, however I do kind of like she/they pronouns. I also have always liked xe/xem pronouns but I don’t think they fit me specifically. I like she/they pronouns but I’m not a demigirl. Huh-
This is either the start of me questioning my gender identity or I’m just going through something.
Help-
- Also I know Mr Banana isn’t here. I’m forcing him to let this one slip.