Okay I read it and here are somethings you might want to know/ questions
No.1 does your mother/ father/ family member who takes care of you know you have panic attacks?
No.2 Panic attacks are very common for ppl that have anxiety. So maybe if you haven't been being diagnosed with it you have a.chance of having it
No.3 Never EVER think you are pathetic for having a panic attack or crying while having it. It's normal to cry during one
No.4 If you ever feel not worthy of living just know that someone needs you in this world <3
So Ty for the answers but No. 1 I asked does your family know you had a panic attack? And Merry Christmas!