Hi mom.
This bracelet is in honor of your death. Because I will alaywas love you. Even though you abandoned me and drove off leaving me alone with nothing to do becuz my aunt was out of town. And I forgive you for making me feel like you abandoning me was my fault. And making me have to call //
//to come and be with me and comfort me because I am all alone.
And most of all.
Just one thing.
I don't forgive you for doing the things you did and taking things you shouldn't and being dead.
in case you can ever come back to life maybe.
Guys I know I definitely whine way to much about my mom on here and I know I have you as my support but i just miss her. I miss her so much. And the thing that really hurts most is, the fact that the last time I spoke to her we were fighting. If we never fought like we did she never would have left. And if she never left she would have never made those bad friends in town and if she hadn't made those bad friends she wouldn't have taken bad things and drink until she dies. Say whatever you want.
I. Just. Gave. The. Explanation. On. Why. My. Mom's. Sudden. Death. Is. My. Fault.
It really really is.
Please help.
Please just hug me.
Please.
!?!?
I need someone to love me rn.
I'm alone in the house except for Abby. And.....
I dunno.'
Im just..
Just done.
Done with growing up.
Done with being a kid.
Don'e with being treated like garbage.
Done with all the sudden deaths in my family.
Done with it all.
And most of all.
I'm doing living my life.
Its getting to hard.
Its just..
Im just..
I..
I just dont know.
-chels
