I live in a place where it is 100% wrong for me to be like this, it is so hard for me to hide it from my friends who will not accept me for who I am, I like this girl who is 99% not a lesbian, I love her, but I know that she will never love me back.
how should I let them know that this is who I am
-Jabber
You can't just feel like it, you have to know. Being Lesbian is not a choice!
https://www.plannedparenthood.org/learn/sexual-orientation-gender/sexual-orientation/what-causes-sexual-orientation