Thank you, Luna. I think the stem of all these thoughts is a worry that someone will think i’m weird. Like, i was fine with that for a while, but then like with my parents being protective I became kind of guarded, and my brother has anger issues so now if someone gets mad at me I kind of flinch, and sometimes even if someone isn’t mad I think that they are and flinch and be like why are you mad and they they’ll say no your mad and then it just spirals downward... Also the KNG incident kind of threw me off. The rest of my friends kind of understood that i’m kind of a whatever-you-want kind of person, and that I grow very attatched to my friends. KNG took my whatever you want as being “too meek and shy” and encouraged me to come out of my shell. This was helpful, but while she was trying to help me out of my shell, she decided i was clingy and fragile. This just made me even more so, and then she left the school so I couldn’t see her in person. She started telling me that my friends were... in other words awful and that AFIA was a zillion times better than MSSA, and that my friends were talking about me behind my back. And for a while, I said nothing about it, but after some time, With all her encouragement to just be strong and stand up for what I believe in, I decided to stand up for my friends. I told her that i didn’t wanna fight or lose her friendship over this, but my friends are nice to ME even if they weren’t to HER. She was just like ugh why should I stick around with someone who likes the people who hated me. Bye this friendship is over. When I tried to prod her back into talking to me, because I know she probably doesn’t hold it against me, she holds it against my friends, she was like this friendship is over so please make the communication over, too. She was never bad to me. My friends were mean to her, and vice versa. But, being stuck in the middle, she had to leave me, too. It’s not that she was the kind of person that i should leave, or that she didn’t like me, it’s that she didn’t like my friends. I’m sorry, you’ve probably already heard this. I SHOULD JUST LET GO. i should just let go. there. i admitted it to myself. But that’s the reason I’m like this. She threw me for a loop, and then left me. I keep thinking it’s my fault.