It sounds like you may have performance anxiety, I have a little voice like that too. I think we all do, just that some of us are better at pushing it down than others. I’d suggest some coping skills, such as deep breaths, a walk in the sun with happy music, hugging a soft plushie, journaling, even just talking to yourself or others to vent your feelings. I’ll always be right here along with Jelly and all your other friends here on KS, if you ever need anything just give us a holler <3