Soooo, I've been thinking....
Okay, so first things first- I go to a private school, and it's Pre K-12. There is two buildings on one campus, and 7th-12th grade is at one. Anyways, that is the one my brother and I go to- he is in 8th, I'm a freshman. Now, we have a couple middle school/ high school mixed classes- I have theater, which is one of them. My brother and I both have this class, and a couple of his friends that are his age (I'm the only highschooler RIP). Sooooo, here's the thing... I think- well, let me rephrase that- I have a crush on my younger brother's friend. Who is a year younger than me.
I'm so freaking embarressed.
This isn't his actual name, but we will call him Dustin. Dustin is super cute- I just totally fell in love with him, and I don't know why. Actually, I probably do. He's so cute I feel like I just melt when I see him oh my Lord He's got this eye-twitching/ wink thing, and at first I was like, "woah weird" (I never said anything though!) but now I just think it's adorable. I'm a simp. How did this happen? (My FYP on Tiktok thinks I'm a Wilbur simp lol why would it ever think that??)
My brother first introduced us at the homecoming football game last October. We kinda just cracked a couple of jokes with my brother, and then I had to go cheer. I never really saw him much after that- sometimes in the hall, but for some odd reason, it was rare. My bro would always tell me about all the hilarious things he, Dustin, and the bois had been doing in class.
So, now it's second semester. The three of us have theater now, and it is a BLAST. My brother, Dustin and I hang out all the time in that class, and ever since we've gotten to know each other better (including swapping some slightly, er, bad(?) secrets with eachother lol), I am just head over heels for him. I think he's got a great personality (actually that's what I noticed first about him), and hey, bonus points, he can play drums and guitar (Lord I love guitar)!
Okay, here's the catch- he's got a girlfriend. I feel so bad saying this, but I've met her, and I totally feel like I can top her- but, disclaimer! I would never, EVER steal another girl's dude! I would feel so bad :( She is his age, so that's another thing.
One day in theater, Dustin asked my bro if I liked him. Ofc, bro-code, my brother said "no."
Now, some plus sides! I've been saying he should come to a basketball, game, and he usually doesn't go, because they are usually away games, and no one wants to drive an hour, I guess. Anyways, last night, he finally came to one!! :D He drove (well, actually his older bruh did lol) four hours to go to a basketball game, in which he generally didn't do. He sat up in the bleachers for the first half, but when he saw and came up to me at half time, he moved to the first row. He always did the crowd cheers with me an watched me (that sounds creepy lollll) .We would just smile at eachother after the game :)
Anyways, you think I have a chance?? Idk, I feel like this is dumb. Should I go for it? Relationships between highschoolers an middleschoolers are strictly forbidden at my school (even though it would only be a year difference)... Anything? Any advice??