Ok, so this is gonna take a lot of explaining. I am 14 and still in diapers. I am female and have a lot of trouble controlling my bladder. I am autistic and have ADHD as well.
My parents have always been concerned about me and my bladder. As I grew up, I heard my parents chatting with their friends about how I wasn't potty trained yet but their kids were. It bothered me a lot, and I would cry myself to sleep at night.
Once in 3rd grade, my teacher called me to the board to solve a complex math equation. The problem was, I wasn't very good at math and I hadn't gone to the bathroom yet (Math class is my last subject of the day). I was trembling as I walked to the front board, and I picked up an EXPO and started answering the problem; or, pretending to answer anyway. I was so stressed that I accidentally wet myself in front of the entire class, plus my crush. What made it worse is that my teacher took my hand and led me to the bathroom. She then proceeded to change my diaper in one of the stalls and I never stopped getting bullied for that.
When I turned 11 years old and I still wore diapers, my mother insisted I go to a doctor. They said there was nothing wrong with me, but my mother went even further and insisted I go to therapy. All therapy did was stress me out, and my therapist, Miss Becky, treated me like a little kid. She always have me these honey-flavored lollipops that tasted horrendous and sang me ridiculous nursery rhymes.
My parents are pretty disappointed in me for it, though they try not to show it. Every day when I get home from high school my mother leads me to the bathroom to see if I had any "accidents", and sighs if I did.
Is anyone else like this? I have tried to get potty trained but its impossible for me. Every time I try, it never works out. Any advice for me?
