This is gonna be long and ima be talking about 2 things here so...sorry for the longness of this xD.
I used to think I was lesbian cause I was crushing on multiple girls but then my close friend who I had been crushing on told me they were now using he/him pronouns. I was happy for him and we started dating soon after.
But that meant I wasn't lesbian. Then I thought I was pan, but I quickly wiped the thought away. I was confused though and was scared of what my dad would say because I told him a few months back that I was lesbian and he said he supported me but I didn't want him to think it was just a phase or something ridiculous like that.
Then I did some research and came across the term demigirl. I related to it so much. I have always been a bit of a tomboy even from a young age, and my mother can confirm. I've never been a super 'girly-girl', but I've never really been a full 'tomboy' either.
Any of y'all have opinions on this? I would love to hear them.
Now ima talk about my other problem: my mother.
She's basically insane and my entire family suspects her of having a psychological mental issue but my mother hasn't been officially diagnosed yet. I can give you some examples. Just a few days ago I woke up and took a shower. Afterwards I placed my towel on the counter in the bathroom instead of hanging it up. My mom came in 3 minutes later and went hysterical. She started screaming and sobbing really loud and just fell to the floor and curled into a ball. My brother came up the stairs a few seconds later and just stared at us like we were insane. I just stood there, utterly confused, as my mother cried, "THIS IS WHY I DONT TRUST YOU, (my name), YOU ALWAYS TELL ME I DONT TRUST YOU ENOUGH BUT THIS IS WHY! YOU COIULDNT EVEN HANG UP A TOWEL AND YOU NEVER STOP ABUSING ME!".
Yep, she said that. My brother just hugged her as she continued bawling and I just stood there like "what the heck?"
She went downstairs a few minutes later, still sobbing like a toddler. My little softie brother was hugging her and trying to calm her down, but i could tell he was utterly bamboozled as well. I went downstairs a few minutes after them, still wondering what the heck was happening. Mom greeted me with a huge smile the second I entered the kitchen and handed me a plate of tomatoes as if nothing had happened just a few minutes before.
Another example is when I accidentally got the days mixed up and went to the parent pick up line at school instead of the bus line. I realized my mistake soon after ad called my mom to pick me up. I was at my dads that week but he was at work and couldn't just leave to pick me up. As soon as I to!d mom my mistake she screamed like a madman. "ARE YOU INSANE? HOW COULD YOU GET THE DAYS MIXED UP I LITERALLY TOLD YOU YESTERDAY! I AM 20 MINUTES AWAY I CANT GET THERE INSTANTLY. GIVE ME A WHILE." And then she continued screaming about how stupid I was while I just sat there, trying to hold back my tears as the nice teachers let me into the office. When she came to pick me up half an hour kater, she was all smiles as she thanked the teachers and led me out if the building towards her car. But in the parking lot, she continued screaming at me and I had to hold back my tears again. I was already distraught because of my honest mistake and her scolding didn't make me feel any better. she was yelling so loud the teachers could have heard her all the way inside the school if they wanted to.
Im no psychologist but I don't exactly think that is normal behavior right there. Also, what do y'all think about the demigirl thing. I am SO SORRY THAT THIS WAS SO LONG. If u actually read all this then I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
