i told ms boston wat is happenin too me. she siad grief. why am i forgettin everything? she siad trauma. how? she siad aftr i blackd out when adam died that i hit my head on the floor rlly hard. hospital? no. i think the world is a nice place but its been meen too me. y did this happen when i workd so hard too bee normul? y? y? did something happen and i missd it?
sometimes we have to give back what we gain, i think. sometimes we cant keep it all. sometimes we need to regain the ground we were on befur. i think ive regaind it. i dunno if ive found it. even if i have, wat is the porpoise?
too bee moms special snowflake? i guess ill nevr know.
from yours, reily
