so, hm, this is the first time I go in here for I while but I had a pretty terrible week and I kind of need to vent? I don’t know if this is the correct word
So, everything started yesterday, when I got into a fight with two of my friends. We were doing a math exercise and I gave them a solution, they told me it was incorrect and then I explained again, but I’m REALLY short tempered and was trying to keep it all together and don’t freak out and be rude, but I ended up talking louder. One of them answered “you are the smartest in the room, aren’t you” but kind of rude, you know? It made me very angry so I turned again to not argue with her. I just tried to keep on with the day. I tried to, again, ask them a question, which she answered again in a rude tone. I just said “no, yeah, cool, okay then” and turned it again. I apologized for being rude and she apologized too.
For a bit of context: in my country, we have this yearly party that happens in June. It celebrates the countryside culture and we dance tradicional songs and eat tradicional foods. It is a pretty fun party. We have little games and if you win them, you get some cool toys. My school had this competition that the class that gather the biggest amount of toys would win this free breakfast with cake and other cool things.
But some people in my class did not cooperate and we lost.
So, because my class had to manage one of the games, I (the vice class president, who ends up doing more then the class president himself) texted my class warning that one of the people that didn’t bring toys would need to go Friday to school to get everything set up for the party. 20 people saw the text, and no one answered me. Another girl had to text them to warn the same thing I texted before, and they answered her in 2 minutes.
It was enough for me. I left the school group chat and will quit my charge next Tuesday, when the teacher responsible for the class will show up. I cried yesterday and today. I hate school. I used to love it now I hate it.
I also went to the doctor and she told my mom I might have ADHD. My dad has it too, and he said that I didn’t have because I didn’t had the symptoms. The thing is, I have those, every one that he mentioned. I don’t know how to tell him, but I’m going to start therapy and it will be the therapist that will decide.
It was kind of a bummer because if I really have ADHD, I don’t know how to “think” like other people. My mom told me to just focus, but I can’t. It’s like whenever I try to, it is useless. I don’t know if I have this thing, but if I do, it sucks.
Anyways, it is kind of a vent? Kind of a “I hate school” thing? Kind of “none of my classmates respect me” or “my friends think I’m stupid”? I don’t know.
