Answer to all points:
1: ask someone on KT to tutor you. There is always someone thats pretty smart. I can tutor you if your level is low enough.
2: its your intrest. Forget about what other people think. People can shut their mouths, you are YOU! You are amazing, other people dont have anything you!
3: you have an obvious talent for writing. Speaking of the school’s talent show, you could write a short story for it! Maybe something about getting over hardships and bullying and making friends, just like sisters of the north!
4: okay, if you feel FORCED to continue and you don’t want to, then quit. Forget about the crying part, though. Take a break if need be on your channel. And like i said in point 3, do writing.
Also, what should i call you? You are kinda like a friend to me here and i dont know your alias. Nordic_genealogist seems a bit long, so what should i call you for short?
Anyways, dont be sad, we’re here for you! I believe you can succeed in everything right now! Remember our support, and it’ll help you build your motivation!