ok so i just hate life mostly because of trauma, disorders, bullying, ect. lets start with the trauma. i have ptsd with this one girl that i used to be friends with but stopped being friends with her because she was emotionally abusive and she was just a horrible person. now every time i see her i get a panic attack and get away as fast as i can. she makes me want to kill myself. i hate everything i hate myself i hate my body i wanna die i have attempted multiple times, one time was literally in front of her and im pretty sure she laughed and im tired of everything. please help me i dont want to feel this way anymore